Angel's Blog

Long time no see

2011-02-17T22:41:00.004+01:00

It's been a while since I've updated my blog...
Life's been kinda hectic, never been so emotionally stressed before.
Living in Rotterdam is not like I've imagined it to be.
My vision was very simple: Independent (away from my parents overprotection.)
The real deal is you'll never get privacy when you're an 18 year old student living in dorms with a same age student. It's like sharing all over the place! I don't mind sharing, but I just don't like to share with someone who doesn't share with me. Ok, she's greedy. I kinda miss my family. And yeah my friends were right I also miss them badly.
Here's my story about my student life in Rotterdam...
School started and I was going back to my parents every passed two weeks on the weekend. I felt free when I was back in Rotterdam. So did I acted in a way...
I went shopping every day, because I just don't like to be home that often. I've found a part-time job at a big catering company, slaved myself badly though I've made friends there. I also went out to dance with some old friends. I met my co-worker during a party and went to a concert with him. My first concert. Ended up going to his parents house one night, watched a movie together, stayed for the night and being brought to school the next morning. Days after that we just didn't contact each other anymore. I don't know what to say to him. He doesn't show any interests anymore, I guess I'm not that interesting. I've also let a few other friends sleep over. Realizing I just don't like to be alone.
Sometimes I just can't get understand the people her, hey I'm still the girl from Groningen! Though people here tend to look down on me, being a countrygirl or something. I'm not! Groningen is also a city! I just feel dumb in comparison with my classmates, I know I can do better. But my brain just ain't working with me here. Like my motivation for school is gone, blown away to some other girls head. I'm all about last-minute and spontaneous actions lately. I've taken another part-time job at a sushi restaurant, just to be able to pay my rent and take care of myself, not that my parents don't financially support me. But I just feel more independent and less guilty when I know I've earned it myself. Though they do give me some cash occasionally just so I have a little extra. I do feel happy and blessed that I've come so far. I'm living on my own in a big city, with my own choices and responsibilities. I've been thinking what to do when I don't pass this year. You might think: Why would she say this all of a sudden. I just haven't been doing well at school. Just felt so de-motivated since I've screwed up my first exam. Let's say I just didn't studied for it, because I was lazy. I'm ought to try harder. I have to retake a lot of exams, hoping to pass this year. Wonder if I can really do it. Valentinesday just passed. What does love mean to me lately? Well it kinda doesn't really mean anything to me. I know that it must go both ways to work. I know it means hard work and a lot of dedication. But I just don't know if I can do it, nor do I believe someone would try so hard to stay with me. I'm all about standards, someone without my standards I just won't let them in. I've let someone in before, but with regrets I must say: I'll never do that again. My mother warned me: You can have a boyfriend, but if he breaks you, don't you dare to cry harder than him.
She's right though my mother and I have too big of a pride to be apologize or say I love you to some boy. We just need some head start. My daddy said: You can always stop, by ignoring them. Haha daddy just wants his little girl to stay single. I would love to, but every girl needs love. I'm like my daddy when it comes to being sentimental. Since I've moved, daddy texts me: I love you. Before that, he had never told me that. Made me cry when I first saw it. We are more open to each other, though I'll never tell him about me falling for some boy. He'll be less proud of his little girl.
I'm going to finish my rapport tonight and I'm going back to Groningen this weekend <3

Groningen & Rotterdam

2010-09-16T21:50:00.002+02:00

'You can have roots and wings'

Josh Lucas in Sweet Home Alabama.

PREVIEW: Photo's of my room in Rotterdam

2010-07-30T19:32:00.008+02:00

Here is a simple video with before photo's of my room and the rest of the apartment in Rotterdam. I'm going to buy a new bed on monday and hang up the curtains. The after photo's are coming soon. Music playing: Big Bang - Tell me goodbye
Enjoy!

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I got a room in Rotterdam!

2010-07-23T03:43:00.012+02:00

Tuesday 20th july my mother and I went to Rotterdam to view the potential room.. We had to take the train, 3 hours later we arrived at the central station in Rotterdam. And then we took the subway to Gerdesiaweg. About 15 minutes on the subway and then my roommate picked us up and we had to walk about 2 minutes and we reached my new home.

First impression: Wow so big and bright! I fell in love with the apartment right away. Didn't care about the little things.
My mother and I both agree when we said that we wanted this room for me.
The owner told us that there was another viewer so we had to wait until they would call us to confirm that evening.

We were in the train back to Groningen, all worried and sweaty because of the hot weather..
and then the owner said something like: Hey the other viewer didn't show up, congratulations, it's yours!
I was so relieved and happy!
I'm going to miss everyone
Though I'll try to go back home every weekend :D
Here are some photo's of my apartment that I share with one other girl...

The first photo is the left side of my room, the bed is not mine, I'm going to buy one soon. Hope to buy a box spring! :D

The second photo is the right side of my room, TV and radiator isn't mine either. The girl with whom I have to share the apartment stayed in that room but because she can't pay the rent by herself anymore she offered out her room and she's going to sleep in a new room that her father, who has a construction company, will build for her using a part of the living room.
I hope to have a TV in my room.

The third photo is my ceiling! I love the ceiling, though I have to replace the ugly lamp because it ruins the pretty ceiling, but that's not a priority.

The fourth photo is the hall way, the door on the right side is the entrance of the apartment. The door at the end is the door to the living room. The view to the hallway is taken at the door of my room.

The fifth photo is the smallest kitchen I've ever seen, that's one downside because I love to cook, but I couldn't say no because of that little downside, though the toilet and bathroom isn't that big either, but that doesn't matter. As long as my room is ok. We also have a balcony but I haven't made a photo of that.

The last photo is the living room with on the left side my mother, right side my roommate with her tube dress and belt and her little sister wearing shorts and blackish shirt. The part where you see a door is the door to the hallway. The part where you see light is my room and from there on you see some sofas, that's going to be the room of my roommate and the rest is going to be our living room and the room where we eat.

The whole apartment suits my taste, pretty new windows, white walls and ceiling and laminate floor. I'm happy to be able to live in such a nice hood. Hoping to be able to live there large part of my study of fiscal economy in Rotterdam.

No stress?

2010-07-19T01:55:00.002+02:00

I couldn't sleep yesterday night >.< feeling really agitated this morning
Today a lot of relieving things happened that hopefully can make me sleep better tonight..

I cleaned up my closet, so I got more space for new clothes! It's now easier to find a look for the day. And when its time to move, I'll be quicker on my way...

The girl from the room replied back.. finally... it took a while hehe she was working lol
but ok so tuesday my mother and I are going to take a look at the room in Rotterdam, if the room looks good, I'll be moving to Rotterdam! And then the real deal starts, I have to look for a job. I'm not planning to be supported by my parents forever... although that's quite relaxed I just feel irresponsible and guilty, I didn't turned 18 to go hardcore lazy xD I just feel responsible to be taken care of my parents from now on :)

Also big relieve!!! I passed for my HSK exam!!! That means I can get to a certain level of the Beijing Chinese proficiency test!
I'm glad that I passed!

It's now time to relax and sleep well for once... Have to prepare a goodbye party for my friends and family in Groningen, hoping to get enough cash to make that happen. I'll be back every weekend in the future, so I hope to stay seeing them although I don't live in Groningen anymore.

One stress point: my drivers license, I stopped taking drivers lessons 2 weeks ago, because of a lack of money but I hope to continue that soon. I've been waiting a long time till I turned 18 to be able to drive in a car. Pinky promise I'll get my license before I turn 19!

Update my holiday

2010-07-16T19:14:00.004+02:00

Holland lost the finals against Spain T.T *cry~!
but the tribute was like we've won :D it made up a lot.

Today I saw a question at Lockerz: Who's the most important person of your life?
I didn't know what to answer...
My brother, my parents, my friends, other family members. I don't know and I hope I'll never ever have to choose.
That's why I've chosen not to answer that question.

Next week tuesday my mother and I are going to view a potential room in Rotterdam. It's suppose to be very nearby my school. I hope it's a clean environment. I know I'm going to be homesick. At first I really couldn't wait to move out and didn't have any thoughts that think twice, but after some worried preaches of my family and friends, I know I'm going to miss them anyways.

I'm going to live in a house with one other roommate. I really hope the room come to my standards. I just want a room with enough space for my own things and privacy. I also want to be friends with the other girl in the house, just have a quick talk sometime. I haven't seen any photo's of the house yet that can give me an idea of how the apartment looks like, I'm so curious, and the girl in the house that rents out this room replies so slow. It's getting a bit on my nerves. When I think about it now, I think I should just look for more rooms to view. The rent is not exactly cheap... We'll see if my worries get rewarded.

Finals Holland vs. Spain

2010-07-07T22:26:00.004+02:00

The match Germany vs Spain was quite boring if you'd ask me. But the out coming was very nice. Everybody was wishing for Germany because it would be a repeat in the history. But Spain won with 1-0! A goal hit by Puyol. Sunday are the finals with Holland vs. Spain. It's gonna be very exciting!

HOLLAND IN THE FINALS!

2010-07-07T13:46:00.005+02:00

Yesterday Holland vs. Uruguay in the World Cup...
It was so exciting! Giovanni Van Bronckhorst kicked in the first ball in the first 9 minutes! 1-0! I heard he's about to retire so it's a nice retirement gift. And then Uruguay people scored one too before the break making it 1-1... Everyone was so bummed when that happened and then the break before the second half, everyone went outside for a smoke. The second half of the match began and Wesley Sneijder scored the second goal and everybody in my father's café was so happy! 2-1! Everyone was cheering for our team and soon after the second goal, when everyone wasn't even finished with cheering Arjan Robben scored another goal! 3-1! Everyone was sure we're in the finals and during the final 2 minutes the referee whistled and we all thought the match was over but it was a penalty chance for Uruguay, they scored another point during a penalty. Making the match end with 3-2! In the end everyone was like: 'Just whistle and end the match already!' We weren't afraid to loose, because everyone was quite confident about this match, but we were a little bit pissed that the match ended with 3-2 instead of 3-1. Hehe but overall it was a great match! Today Germany vs. Spain, we all hope we'll play against Germany because it will be like 1978, we won the World Cup then too against Germany. Sunday will be an exciting day. Praying and hoping Holland will go home with the World Cup 2010!

Graduated and still busy

2010-07-01T01:18:00.004+02:00

(Left: My graduation flag and schoolbag) YAY! Thursday 17th June was the day I heard I'm finally graduated!!! xD Happy? Liberated? I really couldn't believe it at first because of my 'future plans' are finally going to get realized!!! Oh Gee it's for reaL this shizzle!!! :D feel my happiness yet?!

OK! although I'm graduated and I'm so relieved... I still need to do a lot of important things..

Search for a holiday/ volunteer work, just to keep myself busy because I'm one of the few who's Not going on a sweet holiday... Tight budget because of drivers lessons and just save money to pay rent for my future crib. Hoping to find a job where I can earn a little or a good volunteer place where I can really learn something.

(Right: Erasmus bridge Rotterdam) I'm also surfing the whole web searching for rooms in Rotterdam, because I'm going to study there begin September. Yes I've already signed up for an university, no worries I'm also already accepted! Finding a place near my school is crucial because I currently live approx. 3 hours away from the big city Rotterdam. An advantage is that the Dutch government gives us students free public transportation on working days, it's called Studenten Ov-Chipkaart, how nice is it not? Hope it stays that way. I've recently found two rooms near my school, in comparison with other rooms, they are cheaper, bigger and nicer hood. Believe me when I say renting a room in Rotterdam is almost as expensive as monthly rent from a normal family house, but you've got waiting time for houses and other stupid rules. Lucky me the area around my school is heard to be one of the best naborhoods in Rotterdam. I hope to be invited to view one of those rooms.

Hmmm.., I also gotta wait for results of my HSK chinese proficiency test. My classmates from Chinese school and I went to Rotterdam to take that test, we were a little late and by official rules we weren't allowed to take the test, but they were so kind to pity us and eventually let us participate the exam. It's actually not that important because I only took that exam to know my own level of proficiency, there are people who take this exam just to be allowed on an University in China or to get a certain job. But still I really hope I passed...

(Left: Fiat 500 Dutch Police Car) Today I had my #8 drivers lesson, it was also the last one with the current teacher because he's going on a holiday for four weeks and I can't wait for him because I'm moving soon. I thought about it for quite a while, he's a good teacher but I just can't wait that long. So we said goodbye, I thanked him for the passed couple of weeks and I've just found another drivers school. A little more expensive but it's suppose to be quite good. Hoping to be ready to make that exam very soon!

Many hopes and many dreams, but don't we all? Don't ever give up hope. Just fight and we'll see, in the end all you can say is: I've tried! And if you've succeeded, fighting pays off and keep fighting for what you want. ;)

I'll be

2010-05-13T00:52:00.004+02:00

Just feel like running at night, or listen to music, dance and sing for hours and wake up in the morning in my cozy bed, stretch out and yawn, or talking with friends about plans to go out, do things that just make me feel happy. I like to be Angel but sometimes I envy the ones who can always bring up the motivation to complete their goals.

I notice if someone talk about their problems with me I always have to bud in and try to solve their problems, noticed I really gotta learn to say no for once? I'm afraid they'll be unhappy, it's like I know exactly how someone feels when they tell me their problems, as if they give me a piece of their guts. I don't care if I'm unhappy, I just want the people around me to be happy. That's why I can never just stand aside and ignore them. I try to cheer them up although I know I can't help them. I promise when I grow up and earn a lot of money, I'll always help my friends and family. They are my everything! Sometimes I feel neglected but that doesn't matter because after I helped them to cheer up, even just a bit, the rush I feel after that is always stronger than the neglecting feeling.

Believe in my heritage, they both had some rough times when they were younger, not something I can just say 'I feel your pain'. My mother gave me the strength, my father gave me the determination I need to fight for what I want. Final exams are here. I know everyone is asking me about my plans for the future, I might come over like someone who'd already figured out for years what she wants, I noticed how people asks me all the time 'what are you planning to do?' making me freak out internally sometimes, worried I've made the wrong decision. But like everyone I had my doubts for the last couple of years.

I started with dreaming to be an Exterior Architect but I really didn't see myself being all artsy my whole life, no offense I really love to draw and be creative but I realized a long time ago it's not something I want to do for a living.

I like to be around people and listen to their stories and problems, psychiatry seems to be a fine study for me, but I know I'll emotionally get to much involved.

I've always love Asia, since I've lived there for a while when I was little, I really miss my family there, the food, smell and surroundings.. I thought International Business and Management was my study, not knowing what I'm exactly doing abroad, because only the word International attracted me, I've always dreamed to be a business woman, working in one of those world famous skyscrapers, I'm a hardcore dreamer hehe..

I also took a dozen of those tests to figure out 'what you wanna become when you grow up' or 'what you wanna study after you graduated' or 'what profession fits you the best'. They suggested me to be all different kinds of professions. Knowing such things just have to be counted on one part your own interests and the other part your best skills.

Accountancy was the final advise of the dean of my school. It suppose to fit my obsession to be organized and precise. And I'm not that bad at math. I really thought that advise really suited me. Until I recently found another study that fits all my interests and skills. Remembered I heard of this study before, a good friend of my father had studied this too. That's how I've made my decision: I'm going to study Fiscal Economy. Although I had my doubts in the beginning about what kind of study, what university I'm joining and where I'm going to spend my time growing to be independent and a grown up. After some research, tour at the campus, a few reviews of friends and articles I'm convinced I've made the right decision.

Fiscal Economy teaches everything you need to know about the economy. I'll be an expert in every kind of tax, law, accounting and more. It's a perfect study for someone who's determined to stay put, being organized and precise. I've chosen to study in Rotterdam, because I find it the perfect big city for me to broaden up my horizon and learn about more different kind of ethnicities and cultures. It's also a chance for me to learn to be on my own. I hope my friends and family will support me in my decision.

It's now up to me to pass my exams! After that I'll be looking for a room/ house and a job in Rotterdam. Fighting!

16th March 2010

2010-03-16T20:45:00.005+01:00

Times go by so fast when I'm feeling happy. And it goes so slow when I feel like crap. Sometimes the mask I'm wearing just won't get off without this blog helping me a little. I had some problems with my college, making my past few nights sleepless, I really hope I can still join this years exam. I worked really hard to get to this point.

It never seems to be enough, slowly my motivation builds down and I end up feeling miserable as hell. How can this happen, I know I have everything my dearly soul has to ask. Sometimes I don't know what I'm doing myself.. ending up doing the wrong thing. At one moment I'm focussed on something special, on the other hand I'm somewhere else and sometimes I just think too much.

I wish there was a switch to turn off my thoughts. I wish I was a little kid again, I didn't thought much, I didn't need much, I was happy with everything I had. I write in my notebook and wonder a million times, what can I do to stop these useless, energy sucking pessimism.

About another 3 weeks, it's my 18th birthday, I hope someone remembers without checking some online community or something. It just doesn't feel sincere when people just leave a note. I appreciate the gesture though I'm happy to be almost 18 years old, it gives me a lot of access in this world. I'm going to start my drivers lessons, set my own insurance and just to be able to say I'm 18, not an adolescent anymore, don't treat me like one. I started to think like an adult when everyone though I wouldn't know what they were telling me.

Rough days can pull me down sometimes, but I always end up pulling myself up again. Setting my own goals, knowing them and strive to endless succession.

Don't worry be happy!

New Year's eve

2009-12-31T02:50:00.000+01:00

My plans for 2010

- I love all my friends and family~! I'll continue to support you guys in any way you need me and hope everyone stays healthy and happy~!

- Taking care of my health, this includes sleep earlier, eat less junk food and lay off the candy.

- Aiming for my diploma, I'm going to make my homework and put school before fun.

- Get drivers license, I'm going to plan my lessons well, resist to cancel my lessons.

- Be an overall happy person, stop looking for the bad sides of everything and stop thinking about the bad things.

Happy New Year!!! Gelukkig Nieuwjaar! 新年快了！

Maintain discipline and eternal loyalty, strive for endless succession and disapproving contradictory. =)

Photo's will come soon~!

My Asos Package

2009-12-31T02:35:00.005+01:00

On a lovely afternoon, my mother called me to wake up for driving lessons. I was too lazy to get up. My mother yelled a few times, that I'm a lazy girl and stuff xD and then she said I got a package! I jumped off my bed and ran off the stairs... OMG! My new shoes, tights, skirt and beanie arrived!!! I'm so happy!^.^ I also got a free cotton asos bag hehe xD
I'm wearing my new shoes now...at home xD I wasn't sure if I had ordered the right size for my skirt and shoes, but I did! =P size 10 en 4 haha so cool!I was expecting my delivery at 11th January 2010, after I paid through Paypal, I realized I've picked the wrong delivery, standard delivery. I was quite disappointed when the forum and asos contact told me, they couldn't change my delivery into express. Although I was prepared to pay another 6 euro for express delivery before x-mas. I was very happy they launched Paypal too, I finally could buy stuff without having to have a creditcard. =)
My package arrived before x-mas!!! I'm so happy!!!
asos is the best! Good service, fast delivery and good quality stuff...5 stars! haha I'm sooo planning to buy more stuff, if I get more money :D love you asos! <3

I love Paypal!

2009-12-14T21:31:00.004+01:00

aaaah! I saw beautiful shoes last week and I couldn't buy it because I had to have a credit card or a bank account in the UK.
I received a newsletter from Asos.com because I really like that store, so I subscribed. I saw a Paypal icon!!! There wasn't Paypal at first, but now there is!!! I'm so happy =D I'm like I saw those gorgeous shoes and I couldn't buy it, so I've searched for it everywhere in my hometown. There were shoes who looked like it but weren't the same, I'm quite picky and I look at every detail. I want to buy it as soon as possible! =) I'll take a photo of my purchase after it arrived!^^

14th December

2009-12-14T01:32:00.002+01:00

3 hours ago, love broke me down
My long term planning:
I'm going to get my drivers license!
Buy a nice car!
I'm going to get my diploma!
I'm going to move out of house and live in Den Haag!
Be on my own!
Never let a boy distract my attention from studies, friends, family or whatever.
These are long term to be realized ideas.
I'm planning to succeed!
aja aja fighting!!!
I'm going to be perfect =)

To every guy

2009-08-04T01:49:00.002+02:00

To every guy that's said, "Sex CAN wait"
To every guy that's said, "You're beautiful."
To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town to see her.
To every guy that gives her flowers and a card when she is sick or down.
To every guy who has given her flowers just because thats how he rolls.
To every guy that said he would die for her.
To every guy that really would.
To every guy that did what she wanted to do.
To every guy that cried in front of her. ....
To every guy that she cried in front of...
To every guy that holds hands with her.
To every guy that kisses her with meaning.
To every guy that hugs her when she's sad.
To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all.
To every guy who would give their jacket up for her.
To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe.
To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to see her for ten minutes.....
To every guy that would give his seat up...
To every guy that just wants to cuddle.
To every guy that reassured her that she was beautiful no matter what.
To every guy who told his secrets to her.
To every guy that tried to show how much he cared through every word and every breath.
To every guy that thought maybe this could be the one.
To every guy that believed in her dreams.
To every guy that would have done anything so she could achieve them.
To every guy that never laughed at her when she told him her dreams.
To every guy that walked her to her car and opened the door.
To every guy that gave his heart.
To every guy who prays that she is happy even if you are not with her.

Not many girls appreciate nice guys anymore...
And because of this, there are not many left out there...

I guarantee 90% of the men on your page will not repost this cuz they care more about their image

If you are a nice guy repost this with:
"This is how every girl should be treated."

If you are a girl that thinks every guy should treat a girl this way
repost this with: "To Every Guy"

Quote me

2009-08-01T21:51:00.000+02:00

Maintain discipline and eternal loyalty, strive for endless succession and disapproving contradictory. =)

29th july

2009-07-29T17:00:00.006+02:00

Yesterday I've heard some real bad shit about my ex-cousin. Yea, he doesn't want me as his niece anymore because I told him to stop being such a bad person. I've wrote some true facts on Facebook and he thinks I'm wrong because I told the truth about him.
My friends came to visit me and we had a nice day, we've talked, played Singstar, Wii Sports and watched some television. After that they left and I've talked to my father..
He told me about when I was two years old, he went to Asia to work at an import/export company. He wanted to make money, to make my family's life easier. He said he regretted that move in his life. He said he had everything he needed, but he neglected a lot. I felt guilty, because I've always thought he just went away to earn money for himself and doesn't care about anything. I felt lonely when I was little, because my father was always away. I'll never forget that feeling.
He told me to study fiscal economy, he said everyone needs to pay taxes, so why won't you collect them. You're insured of a paycheck when you choose that direction. I wanted to become an architect, because I like to design houses and rooms and stuff. But thinking of a stable financial security, makes me choose that direction. But we'll see, I still got a school year to decide what I want to do.
After I've talked to my father this morning I went to bed at 5 am. I was so tired. I lay down on the bed and just felt uncomfortable. My arm started to hurt and just as if someone was sitting on it...
Around 1 pm, I woke up and I remembered I've had a nightmare about my mother, she was dating another woman?! I told her that woman was a slut and then she twisted my arm.. It was such a weird nightmare.. I was shocked because my mother is married to my father, if my family would do such a crazy thing, I now know what I would do. I would run away and forget I have family at all.
On monday 27th july I heard on the Dutch radio, when I was in the car with my father. The host was talking about couples divorce after a holiday. They seem to get more aggressive towards each other, having the time to think things through and finding things unfair or something. The woman are usually the ones to take initiative.
I also went to my grandmothers place and my aunt was there, my father's fourth sister, she was so asocial. My father tried to make a friendly suggestion, she just talked like he was somebody who wasn't even family, she acted like she's better. So useless is my family. My grandmothers behavior has improved a lot, guess she's afraid people will forget about her. When I was little she neglected my mother and when it was diner time she called out everyone to eat, except my mother. It hurt my mother and I'll never forget about that. She's pretending to be innocent right now, because she's old now. She doesn't have anything to neglect anymore. Sometimes I feel sorry for her, feeling guilty myself, thinking about grandma like that. But the truth is hard.
I'm so confused right now... My family has problems in every aspect.

24th july

2009-07-24T18:46:00.006+02:00

haha I've made chocolate cake today for the first time!! And I did it!!
with the help of my father off course =P haha
check the picture on the box and the picture of my cake haha XD
First I've mixed eggs, water, chocolate cake mixture, butter..
and then I've poured the mixture into a cake frame =P
and then I've put it in the oven for about 40 minutes xD
It's delicious but the shape is a little bit ugly =P but no worries its eatable xD

Sorry I've made the photo's with my webcam.. my mobile phone is out of battery xD
Credits: My father (Trung Ho La)
and Dr. Oetker

My if's list

2009-07-21T02:31:00.002+02:00

If there was a time machine my life would be so much better =)

19th july

2009-07-19T19:33:00.005+02:00

My mother is on her holiday in Singapore & Malaysia, she's going to help me buy a new cellphone...
Now I'm about to get one I want the newest cellphone I can get...
Now I'm having doubts... because I have to buy it myself...
I'm having doubts about Nokia N97 & 5800... Those are brand new phones from Nokia..
I was also thinking about the Apple iPhone 3G S
Those three phones all got good reviews... I really want a new phone, because I've always had second hand phones or just new phones but old models... in other words... cheap phones.

I'm working at the Ah-Ho Café & Cafeteria. We are having problems with leakage... When it rains.. Our roof will leak.. We have to put buckets everywhere to prevent water damage on the tiles.. Water damage on the walls... we're not financially capable to prevent that... I'm thinking about spending my money to fix the leakage instead of buying a phone... Or spending my money on getting my drivers license to get my phone... This mind sound very selfish.. But the café isn't mine, but my parents responsibility. They're not really planning to invest in a new wall or something... They say it's very expensive and stuff... They don't even bother to get information about the price.. They're quite useless... Sometimes I've got a feeling this building I work in will collapse? Does someone know where I can get information about fixing leakage?

I'm writing this blog, because sometimes I just have to get things out of my system.. Working 6 days a week, under my parents roof... I'm not really capable of sharing my thoughts or opinion about things.. It's still summer holiday.. I still got time till 24 august... I'm preparing physical and mentally for a tough school year.. I'm going to do a study that usually will take two years.. I'm going to do it in one year... Hope I'll make it... No I won't hope.. I'll just do it^^ I'm hoping to loose some weight and built some discipline for a good start of 2010... Planning to get my license in april 2010.... After my state exams.. And then maybe a year to another country for experience or just keep on studying... We'll see...

I guess I won't get a new phone... I'll wait till I'm 18 after I got my drivers license... Maybe I can get a cheap phone again... Then I at least got a new phone =) I'll save up my money for more important purposes...

Puricute addict

2009-07-16T16:39:00.008+02:00

I've always like to make photo stickers with friends or just myself.
I found out a nice website called puricute.com.
On that webpage you can register an account and create cute japanese photo's.
By creating an account you can save puricute photo's and comment on others. Check it out ^^

7th july

2009-07-06T00:43:00.002+02:00

make a wish!
this day is about a girl lost in another world returning on this day to find her lover again...
her lover is a mortal and they meet each other once a year... on this day you can make a wish in the rain.. hoping it'll come true =)
every 7th july it rains.. yea unbelievable but if I recall I haven't missed one =P
haha make a wish in the rain at 12 PM <3

26th june

2009-06-26T20:29:00.014+02:00

It started with Michael Jackson... he died yesterday... You could hear his music everywhere...
So sad that such a brilliant artist died.. R.I.P. In Amsterdam spontaneous people started a ceremony to honor him. Respect!

A friend of mine has the brand new iPhone 3G S, he made me all jealous and stuff. Oh well I'm happy for him. My father promised to pay me 25 euro a day for working at the cafeteria, so I can collect money to buy one myself.

My mother and little brother left to the airport today. We went for lunch at Nam Tin in Amsterdam. After that we went to Schiphol airport. She checked in her luggage and went in the passengers only area.
My father and I were on our way home and it seems that my mother had a problem with her hand luggage. She brought an expensive bottle of whiskey with her as a gift, and the security wouldn't let her take it with her. She could only take it with her if she'd bought it at the see buy fly a.k.a. airport stores. She tried her best to leave the expensive bottle of whiskey at the airport desk, so we can pick it up later. I still haven't heard from her. I hope it worked. We really hope so...

When we were on our way to Amsterdam, we've saw so many accidents...
We were almost gotten into an accident ourselves, a bus refused to let us ride first while it was 100 meters away from us... it almost got to us.. Luckily my father stopped in time..
We also saw cops on their way to a truck who had an accident...
And a bike that fell off a car..

And when we were on our way home.. We were stuck in a traffic jam.. That made the situation of my mother even worse...
I'm really feeling worried while I shouldn't...
I wish they have a pleasant flight and come home safely...

I'm going to die my hair in dark cherry red... Hope this summer will be full of fun and happiness!

By the way 25th june was my last school day at Zernikecollege, I had fun making friends and enjoying school life...
I'll miss everyone!!!

A holiday full of work experiences has begun!

King of pop dead

2009-06-26T01:59:00.004+02:00

Today the king of dead michael jackson died at the aged of 50 by a cardiac arrest. He's been pronounced dead after arriving at hospital in Los Angeles. 1958-2009 R.I.P.

We'll always be a fan of your music<3

24th june

2009-06-24T18:54:00.003+02:00

YEA!!!!!!! =D
I'VE BEEN ACCEPTED INTO THE NEW SCHOOL!!!
I'm so happy!!!
I went to an intake appointment, I've brought my mother with me because I'm not an adult yet...
well mentally I am but officially I'm 17... oh well =P
I'm so happy!!!!!!! aaaaaaaaaaah!!!! makes me wanna scream at everybody!!! hey you! I've gotten into the new college!!!!!
haha =$ My holiday starts tomorrow 25th june... actually officially 4th july, but tomorrow I'mma give back my borrowed books to school and then I'm free. So it's 25th june =D
My new college starts 24th august!!! haha I can't wait to make new friends and start a new fresh school year!
I'm going to do my best! haha! I haven't been so happy in a long time... =P
After I've signed the school application form, my mother and I went to burger king....for breakfast! xD
haha it was nice!
Luckily I've got my friends supporting me or else I wouldn't have made it.
I LOVE YOU GUYS <3 aaaaaaaaah!!!!!
After that I went shopping with friends and bought a lot of stuff! =D
I've bought a new gray shirt, green sunglasses and a pair of new summer heels at H&M. I also got pink Philips earphones at Saturn and Stimorol chewing gum at the Albert Heijn (^.^)b
I'm now home with pain in my feet from shopping xD oh well don't care I had fun! yay!
I'm going to sleep now because I'm tired... later I'mma eat diner haha~!
bye lah~ xoxo AnGeL~

22th june

2009-06-23T03:10:00.002+02:00

I've been to school today, it was useless... But it made me feel more secure...
My mentor told me he tries to contact my new school. I got a call from my new school and I'm going to an interview on wednesday hoping to get in that school. Wish me luck <3

I've been to the city with a friend of mine, job hunting. Just got some addresses. After that we went for some drinks with another friend, he had friends with him, so we socialized =) We went shopping together and I've bought a new adapter for my macbook. It's used to show my macbook screen on the TV =D I'm so happy with it! After that we went for an ice cream at McDonald's and after that we went home. We've talked a lot in between, it was quite cozy =)

When I got home, I've tried out my new adapter, it works! yay! I've eaten pasta and pizza as diner. Talked to some friends on MSN and that's it =P Well it's passed bed time already I'm so tired I'm going to sleep, it was a nice day <3

18th june

2009-06-18T15:55:00.007+02:00

I've find out the true fact today... it's a sad fact, I'm going to keep it a secret. At least I can type it on these pages, it's about my life. Sooner or later someone will find out... Or some of them already know... I suggest them not to spread it around. It's quite awkward and embarrassing. But it's best to finish it and then if it's necessary to tell it... if it's not... then just continue living without even mentioning it/ looking back. I might sound overreacting but trust me, it's for real. I really hope I can finish it... Please support me on this blur cause my dear friends <3 I apologize, but I really can't bear myself to tell it and embarrass my family... I, myself feels quite depressed already.

15th june

2009-06-15T20:57:00.002+02:00

For the first time, I really know what I'm doing.
I've applied for two schools hoping to get in one of them.
I know now what kind of person I am... well kinda small clear bit of it...

I'm always scared... yeah sounds so weird... I know =P
scared... not like in terrified of people but like in afraid to get hurt, you might understand me.
But in my case it's 24/7. Every word, every facial expression and every message can make me happy, sad, angry.
Not like instant... but... for example...
If I send you a message and you don't reply, without saying why or having an excuse for it...
well at least just send me an email back, a scratch or a call or something... just let me know you're still alive?
In this case I would be feeling so abandon.
I know I shouldn't take thought of people personal, but I just care.
You might think this girl is too emotional?
well I'm me I can't change, I just found out this fact about myself.

I really really love my friends because they always support me,
they never lie to me... well sometimes but that's called supportive =)
They always tell me the truth about things, sometimes they can hurt me, but it's part of it... right?
when it was my birthday (7th april) They bought a cake to celebrate with me, at school!
I was so touched, I never had friends like this before, so I don't intend to leave them.
But as I said I'm going to another school,
They all say things like: please don't leave us.
Don't go to another school.
You won't make it on that school... that was harsh... but I guess they try to keep me?
I don't intend to leave them.
So what I'm saying here is, I'll always be here for my friends

food is here! food is important!
haha I'm going to eat =)
bye lah~ much love and sweet kisses <3 AnGeL~

SprinG Time!

2009-04-04T23:50:00.004+02:00

I like spring =)
I do have my allergies coming up but I'll get over it =P
the weather is nice these couple of days, makes everyone look so fresh~
peeps all look so friendly...sometimes they really are! =D haha
city life rullez hard!
shopping is nice in this weather~
nice times~
time for relaxation and less worries <3
so do less enjoy more xD
peace out!~ xx~

Whatever?!

2009-03-31T00:40:00.004+02:00

I've got no motivation at all o_O
for example I wanna study my ass off...but I can't
once I started... I just can't concentrate and just start to wonder off doing something else...my purpose is already gone...
Doing something ain't that easy anymore, I'm thinking lots of things, useless things...
It's easy to say: yea we gonna make it...
the problem is to believe in what you say.. or else there's no point in continuing to say this...
I kinda still have to get that in my head...
I've done a lot lately....but none of those things did I really put my heart up to do it...you know... like... enjoying it?
physically it's laboring...
I've got more spare time left, because I'm like: whatever lately, don't care much anymore...fun things ain't that fun anymore...although I put much effort in something...the chance that it's appreciated is pretty small...so why still try?
Now I realize this situation is kinda good for me, less stress...Mentally it's great...
kinda like it this way, but it ain't taking me nowhere.
But in real life...there are more problems piling up...
I'm afraid to fail...terrified...
I guess everyone is...
I'm not someone who looks at the bad side of life...
in case somebody takes that conclusion again...
'always look on the bright side of life' but that's also something you gotta believe in...hard...
All I wanna say is...

confusion may lead to bad periods, that will lead to non-motivational moments...but hold on cuz it will past and then you'll get a new chance to do it over again

....maybe you'll loose some precious time...but look at it like this: whatever~
Don't take opinion of other people like it's your father talkin to you...cuz I won't...unless it's my father saying it =.= But that ain't happening....luckily...
Fly away in your dreams...if you're awake try to imagine life is just a game...play it right and you'll earn millions^^ hopefully...

ReaL LiFe

2009-02-22T21:11:00.002+01:00

tomorrow school after a week spring break
sucks
but it's life
change it when u can
enjoy
be relaxed
feel motivated
have fun
spread it

much love and dedication~
bye lah~ AnGeL~

ShoCking PerioD~

2009-02-05T21:08:00.004+01:00

dammit!
a lot of things happened these couple of weeks...
quite sad things...
have you felt that too?
family & friends get crashed...more in my circle then usual
I get their trust to hear about it
sucks to talk about it, but it just relieves~
if I think about it, it makes me feel kinda down
when people start to say: 'aw~ darling please feel better...'
it's so sweet and nice, feels caring..
love my friends & family <3
it just feels like *woosh and people just can't stop the tears, unstoppable.
it's hard to write this down
I usual don't think much of it, karma?!
it's in my circle now, can't just don't care
hate to fight
hate to think about this
hate to cry, hate to hate something at all...
love to write bad stuff off me, don't like to talk about it though=.=
realize I support you 100%!
if there's anything, anytime
you know lah~ AnGeL~

Real or Fake?!

2009-01-31T19:49:00.003+01:00

My thoughts for these couple of days...

Things happen real or fake?!
in some situations I hope it's fake...
usually I hope it's for real.

I've been to cs today...celebrating Chinese New year with Chinese School.
I got happier times...no offense but it was wrecking =.=
went to the Noorderlicht, an art gallery by mostly freelancers.
The theme of this period was photography.
It was cool, I expected a lot of photo's that were in scene, but most photo's were of people in real life, quite nice.
After that I went back to my place [H]

Time To Start Studying

2009-01-13T00:29:00.004+01:00

Let's see if this method will improve my grades...
I'm not going online starting Wednesday 14-01 till Tuesday 20-01...
The reason for this experiment is: I've got a test-week!
You guys will live without me =)
Wish me luck ;)
Much love and dedication <3 AnGeL~
Ps: Always available on email, mobile & home =P

Newyear, new life, new start~

2009-01-02T01:32:00.003+01:00

ok the night before newyear was sooo nice I'm like best ever!!! I had fireworks, alcohol, friends, family....it was almost perfect :p u know what I missed lol ok I'll stop fooling around...
it was great I got photo's check them out ;) hehe...
wish everyone a happy, joyful, wishy come truly & lots of love...WOOSH~! into 2009 :p
may 2009 rullez more then 2008!!!!
bye lah~ (k) AnGeL~

Day before 31 DEC!

2008-12-30T20:16:00.007+01:00

The day before 31 dec, my intentions...

時々...生命は堅い

I'm sick, I've got a running nose... yeah I should chase after it =.=
I don't feel highly motivated, I'm suppose to do my best at school this year. I'm suppose to finish a project, but I so don't feel like working now...I know I'll get in problems if I don't, with my project buddies and with my schoolteacher.

I'm intentions for the year 2009 are almost the same as last year, there are some changes, like use your time. You've got 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, that's 168 hours a week. People grow up and work, they start to wonder why didn't I did my best when I was younger? Why didn't I use the time? I've f*cked up 2 years of my life, regret it so much, don't ask how.

I sleep over 6 hours a day, I know it's not enough but I'm used to it now. I've got 18 hours a day to make something out of my life. I use 3 hours to get to sleep and get out of bed. That's 9 hours in bed. You can say I wonder around my house for 3 hours doing nothing like: eat, sit, fantasize about stuff. I leave 8 hours to go to school, to make homework, find a job of my own, live my life, write this blog, talk to my friends. I mostly use the time to socialize. I'm online almost everyday for at least 4 hours. 24 hours to waste, don't you think?

I was suppose to chill with a friend today, but I felt so sick, I just couldn't get myself to see him. I'm going to see 2 friends tomorrow, I haven't seen them in a while, so it's cool. Tomorrow is the last day that I'm going to wonder around doing shit. It has to be, or else I'm going to live a sad life. My motivations are that I'll live happily ever after doing what I want, wander when I want, no financial problems, no problems with health, always be as young as I feel. I guess I should start to do things like a 16 year old girl would do. Stop comparing my life with people older then me. Sometimes it feels like I've got a lot of choices but always pick the wrong one.

Just to make somethings clear, I'm not EMO, I don't write about what I eat at every posts! And yeah I know I should watch what I eat or else I'll get more blown up then I am now. I'm not depressed, I just think about things that bother me and write it down, that's why I started this blog, you should think about them too, maybe your life could get better if you see what's wrong with yourself.

I can be mean sometimes, but that's because I want to show people, I'm not someone you can just yell trash at and aspect nothing will happen. I'm impatient, non-forgivable, always for real, I just listen to the people who gave me good advice before, I don't listen to people who think they can change my life by saying shit like god gave you this life you should respect it. I'm always in for fun, at the right moments. I've talked to someone last night, his grandfather died, he was normal, I didn't know what to say to him at some point. I will make something out of my life, and I don't have to convince myself of it. After you read this, you might hate me, you might think she gotta get herself a life. Maybe you agree with me on some points...but nevertheless because you're reading this, I wish you the same.

31th October...HALLOWEEN!

2008-10-31T12:12:00.003+01:00

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!!!
I'm going to a Halloween party tonight =P
hmmm... I got a little problem though :$ hehe...
I still don't know what to wear as a costume ^.^
Do you have some ideas for me? =P
please comment~
much love and dedication~ <3

30th October

2008-10-30T19:14:00.004+01:00

once upon a time...
aaaaah!!! I was just messing with yah! XD

Here is a list of a few things I've done these few weeks~

Saturday 11th October
Left to Basel, Switzerland for College Exchange

Friday 17th October
Back from Switzerland, arrival at Haren Transferium
Home Sweet Home~

Friday 20th Oktober
My mother's birthday and Asian Party at hometown~

You didn't expect that little...did you? XD
the point is I don't have anything to do lately...bored to hell everyday~ ok I do more stuff then I've written, but it's not cool anymore...
and I love to shop...but it's not like it used to be....not that fun anymore =(
I get bored by people I used to hang out with...can you feel me now? I guess it's a sign of me growing up?! I don't want to yet...maybe when I'm almost 18 or something...or just when I'm going to college....or when I have to make an important decision =.+
Let me give an example...
I went to a party with friends, usually we're the party-gang...but now we're just unknown...usually we're the own starting to dance and stuff...but now it's like noh forget it, it's too embarrassing >.< I don't feel it anymore...you know what I mean...the youth you know XD I know it's sounds crazy but it's the truth...

I wanna be somebody I wanna go somewhere I wanna...lalalala~
yah know that song...right? That's how it is now~

25th september

2008-09-25T15:06:00.003+02:00

seriously....
somebody here who hates me so much that he or she wishes that my life's a hell?
well you could say that about my life...
everything is going the wrong way =(
I'm having bad grades, that's one. We'll get back on that later~
people talk about me behind my back at my school...
everyone is denying things >.<
I'm just so confused, I can't do nothing...
I'm only in for the gym, because then I can do what I want, and the people there just mind their own business...
my life wasn't like this a few months ago?!
I mean when I'm at school and I'm talking to people, it's like everyone is wearing a mask. Even I'm wearing a mask! friends act kind and stuff but are just something else when you're not in their sight. I'm acting like nothing is going on, but something is going on. I just feel weird =S
A few months ago life was like this:
I met with friends we went out for shopping or diner and just had real clean fun...now it's we go out and just don't talk at all, we don't have anything to say to each other, no real conversation?!

2nd september

2008-09-02T16:48:00.007+02:00

It's my day today......not!!!
>.<
here comes a little story of what I've been through today....makes me wanna drop down and cry to be honest...

I've been to school with my bicycle today, it went rainy when I just got on my bike >.<
I've walked in the hallway and I've walked against a teacher, the teacher asked me if I was going blind >.<
The bell rang and everybody was getting out of the classroom, my schoolbag got stuck on my chair >.<

At that time I was thinking OK something is wrong?! it's not as if I didn't get much sleep and got distracted or something, I sleep as much as I usually do. >.<

I did my homework in class, and got scolded by a teacher for not listening to an explanation of a question...that I didn't ask!!! >.<
I went home with my bicycle and my tires in the back of my bike, went flat... >.< I mean, I just got a new bicycle!? >.<
The bicycle shop was apparently fully booked, so they couldn't repair my tires! >.<
so I pumped some extra air in my bicycle and tried to get as fast as possible home.
And at that time, it was also raining...
Now I'm wondering....what did I do wrong?! to somebody or something?! >.<

Honestly, I'm sooo confusing right now...and the day is not over yet....

12th July

2008-07-12T02:12:00.006+02:00

Serious matter

Think of this...

What kind of person are you?

I've been thinking about this a lot myself...

Do you recognize yourself in the description?
Notice yourself before someone else does it for you.

Are you a...

Faker
Someone who acts like they care a lot, but in real life they don't. For example: someone gives you encouragement, but instead its meant to show friends around you, she cares a little, but she doesn't.

Are you such a person? Try to be yourself, people won't hate you, unless you're really hateful, no worries, you're not.

Blamer
Someone who blames other people by for example calling them names, but instead they're really blaming them selfs.

If you recognize yourself in this, try to look at yourself first, keep your comment for yourself. People really don't appreciate you taking their self confidence level down.

Loner
Someone who thinks they're a lot, usually someone without a proper study, perhaps they think they do... They live of other people's advantages, for example money, friends or happiness.

If you're such a person, try to be on your own. Show people you can take care of yourself, and not just being lonely. But try to show them you really are something, we want evidence.

These are some bad characters I've noticed in people around me and perhaps in myself...

Perhaps you're a...

Kinder
Someone who's kind, you can't stop helping people, with everything you got, people really appreciate it, but you could start thinking about yourself sometime.

Depended
You trust people really quick, it's in your blood. You really depend on people because you trust them. You can't live with them or without them. You depend on your friends, and their friends. Try to make your own game.

To be continued, stay in the naborhood for more details...later~

21th june

2008-06-21T23:08:00.003+02:00

HOLLAND LOST against russia.... =(
3-1 it's final~

17th june

2008-06-17T22:40:00.003+02:00

Holland won again!!!! 2-0 against Romania!
Italy won against France with 2-0!
THE REAL GAME IS STARTING NOW~

Hamster^^

2008-06-16T22:22:00.004+02:00

I BOUGHT A HAMSTER!!!!

her name is pichu =P she's about 3 months old...
she's quite wild, but very cute =P
it's a Russian hamster.

13th june

2008-06-13T22:47:00.004+02:00

HOLLAND WON AGAINST FRANCE!!!!
4-1!!!!
VICTORY!!!!!

holland wins the match!!!

2008-06-09T22:36:00.002+02:00

Holland vs Italy!!!!
euro championship!!!
3-0 Holland won!!!!
yay^^

9th june

2008-06-09T21:45:00.006+02:00

Yesterday I sat on the balcony and caught a cold. Now I'm much better. I talked to my cousin, he told me my uncle, wasn't feeling that well... he was possessed by a ghost. you believe it or not, your thing, but it's the truth, the ghost was a single lady, they took my uncle to a temple and the monks there helped to drive away the ghost. Now my uncle can just live his life. If the ghost wasn't driven away the ghost could have taken over my uncle and that would be given big problems. He could die...o_O

I went shopping today for an hour -_-' yeah quite much :D but oh well, it was fun. I ate diner at 4 rose's in the city with my parents. It was delicious Mexican food =P After diner, we hurried back home to watch soccer!!!During the break I've made photo's of my brother wearing girl skirt.
It's our country (Netherlands) vs Italy!!!! I hope we will win, I'll publish the score after the match, it's 2-0 now.

My song

2008-06-07T02:40:00.007+02:00

My songs just come out if I'm inspired, they're always the truth.

This song is called my cares~

I know a lot of people
I don't have a lot I call my friends
I noticed that when I got in trouble
the ones who really cared
were the ones I don't even know for that long

I wished things could be different
but they'll never change that easily
I cherish them one by one
because they're all I have
all I need when I got nothing to do

I heard about the things people talk about behind my back
it's something I can't do nothing about it
I wish it could do me nothing but it just doesn't

I watch drama series every time I'm bored
wishing my life could be that amusing
or just have one moment that can be the same to it
it is made of dreams

to fall for someone is easy
but to really love and to hold is something
you can't push, you can't deny
so it's also something that can happen

what I say is philosophically I know
but if I care I have to think about that...

5th june

2008-06-05T22:58:00.006+02:00

I've got like 4 free vip tickets!!!
the party is tomorrow 6th june in Rotterdam
who will come with me? nobody!!!!
just call out my name and you got free entrance~
I mean peeps, where'd you go?
death, asleep, school, work, don't want to...
I'm like argh...why not?
never mind lah~
I'm going to be at home for the peeps who don't have a life and want to talk to me -_-'
kinda being mean aren't I?
well...
if people were like spontaneous they would say yes and just go,
but they come with I have to work, sleep, eat etc XD
kinda makes me nuts XD
but oh well I'll see for the next time what I'm going to do~
I gave my tickets away~ I bet he's having fun =P

2nd june

2008-06-03T01:32:00.007+02:00

My brother went to a school trip today and got pick on today....a Dutch boy pushed him into the ditch. When my mother picked him up from school, he went home all crying and his clothes were all wet and he was shocked...I was so angry when I heard it, a dutch boy who came to our house recently thought it was funny to push someone into a ditch! :@ my brother is only 7 years old! I promise I'll give him hell if he ever comes in my brother's area again! enough about that.

my mother, brother and I went shopping after that incident to cheer up my brother, we bought him clothes, toys and jewelry =P he deserves it after what he's been through~ I love my brother, he's a cute little kid, but sometimes he's just as annoying as every other kid >.< oh well...I forgot about this, he got a wound of the incident, a blister around the area above his legs, he can't walk that steady, he can't wear pants that tight o_O I hope he'll get better soon.

My father, his friend, mother, brother and I went to my cousins place for diner, we had an excellent diner, it was just like normal, but just felt cool =P I made some photo's. After diner the friend of my father drove us home, my brother went to sleep, my mother watched television, my father went out with his friends and I took a shower and now I'm here. You're always welcome to check my photo's out on my personal site http://acla.multiply.com/

My song

2008-05-29T19:22:00.008+02:00

This song is called happily ever after, written by me^^

This feeling I can't hold
it will appear one day before me
I can't stand and do nothing

forgive me
I love you
with all my heart
with my soul and everything attach to that
please say you feel the same way too
so I can live happily ever after

This feeling I can't hold
without knowing you feel the same way
I can't see you and just face you

forgive me
I love you
with all my heart
with my soul and everything attach to that
please say you feel the same way too
so I can live happily ever after

now I confessed
what you gonna say about that
please give me a sign
please

forgive me
I love you
with all my heart
with my soul and everything attach to that
please say you feel the same way too
so I can live happily ever after

for more lyrics please refer to my blog every...hmmm just follow this blog^^

Angel got HOLIDAY!!

2008-05-29T19:15:00.004+02:00

I've got HOLIDAY!!! Yay!!! I still have to hand in my books and my locker key. But I've got holiday!!! so chill don't yah think? ^.^ I'm going to work, fitness and go out with friends who don't go to another country^^ Haha oh and my secret had gone well...I hope I got the best out of it, I did my best, I did =) bye lah~

18th may

2008-05-18T19:57:00.003+02:00

I'm working hard today because tomorrow is a big day and I've got to do my best. I wish everybody good luck on this subject. Because of circumstances I'm not permitted to talk about this subject. I've been doing my best to prepare for tomorrow, I hope nothing will go wrong. I had to write this because I'm afraid I'll fail. I hope I won't.
Maybe friends of mine have noticed this, but I haven't been on msn lately, because my mother doesn't want me to get distracted for 'you know what' and I agree on that a bit, because I know if I get on msn I won't do my best to pass. This situation will last at least 2 weeks.
I miss my friends, who I talk to on msn and the ones I haven't seen in a while. I'm thinking about visiting the ones who don't go on holiday. Don't know if it will work, I'm talking about my financial status. But I'm working during the holiday so it won't be a problem...I hope =P probably not.
I'm trying to save as much as I can starting....just after I get my new camera =) I'll save up for a holiday to Asia. I'll see when I saved enough, I'm quite good at it, except the fact I ussually spend it on things I just find cute or pretty or cool. Hehe =$ But this time I'll save for... I think a year of 2. Yeah quite much, but I'll spend a little bit between the time, that sounds logical, but I'll try to spend less then what I spend before. I hope I'll try to get money I get from my parents, and money I get from my job into my bank account. The rest, like the money I got in my wallet, I'm permitted to spend that =D

12th may

2008-05-13T00:23:00.003+02:00

10th may: friends came all th way from Amsterdam and we went to the carnaval and had fun^^ ate italian food and icecream and made a lot of photo's! check them at my personal site, multiply.com

12th may: today :) my parents, brother and I went to Den Haag, we went for diner and then we went to the beach and had some fun, check some amateur photo's on my personal site

I'm writing this very shirt because I have to go to sleep now, my mother just called me :D see yah~ check out the adds on the right side may help you a lot~ bye~

5th may

2008-05-05T23:32:00.003+02:00

I've been to Den Haag today with my parents!!!
hihi we were suppose to go to Amsterdam and ehm Germany, oh well XD
yea you probably would think it would be sooo boring because I went with my parents, but they are chill~ sometimes XD
Well today was the day! I bought a lot of things, useless thing^^ so happy XD
and I ate a lot of things, yummy things XD loved it haha!

I had two ice creams today XD hehe was hot so it's ok ;)
Oh and I went to the beach Scheveningen! It was so much fun!
I saw a lot of asian people, made me feel happy in some way haha as if I was home^^
oe and I saw a lot of cute boys >.< hehe hormones people =D
I wanted to make photo's with them and of the nice view there, but no camera >.< But I'm planning to buy a new one...soon XD haha so happy today! =PXD I'm going to take a shower and sleep now bye~

List of what I like^^

2008-05-01T15:26:00.005+02:00

Here's a list of what I like, Do you have more things to add to it just comment^^

I like....

1. my family
2. my friends
3. shopping
4. traveling
5. sleep
6. spend money
7. sushi
8. banh trang <3

9. banh mi
10. Durian
11. strawberry
12. chocolate
13. party
14. watermelon
15. papaya
16. jack fruit
17. longan
18. rambutan
19. dragon fruit
20. branded clothing
21. chill environment
22. skyscrapers
23. msn
24. my blog >.<
25. spontaneous friends
26. to be asked out to have fun^^
27. people who take the initiative
28. pokemon
29. Naruto
30. Death note

I never made a photo on Wednesday

2008-04-30T00:21:00.004+02:00

Here's my schedule for this holiday =)

Monday 28th april:Den Haag with family
Tuesday 29th april:Fitness (*)
Wednesday 30th april:Dutch Queensday~ I'm going to run around the city~
Thursday 1st may:'Hemelvaartsdag' Dutch holiday, don't know what it means but people are free today from work and stuff, so don't matter.
Friday 2nd May:nothing XD
Sunday 4th May:Den Haag? no lah~ *
Monday 5th May:with parents looking for camera? *
Friday 9th may:Ride the dragon boot in Assen with Chinese peeps.
Saturday 10th May:
Friends coming from Amsterdam!!!
finally something except 'Nothing'
Sunday 11th May:
prepare for school the next day~ *

I know I've got a boring life, nothing to do about it. Maybe because I've got strict parents, they don't let me out of the house anyways~ oh well don't matter because I don't mind I'll just study my best and get the job of my dreams build my skyscraper and off I go~ bye lah~

28th april

2008-04-28T23:47:00.003+02:00

I went to Den Haag today, we went to the toko wah nam hong first. We bought a lot of asian food, like chips and noodles etc. After that we went for diner at wing kee. It was delicious! I so wanted to have a camera at that time, the food looked sooo delicious, so I made a amateur picture with my cellphone.

After diner, we went to the beach Scheveningen, it was fun, we bought icecream and slush puppies =P and enjoyed the view of the beach~ I love the beach just to look at it....too bad that I didn't made photo's. A photo can hold more then thousand memories, it's just everything to me. But my camera is broken, and I won't get a new one unless I pass my exams =( it's just so unfair sometimes. I'm going to sleep Now because I have to get up early tomorrow... bye~

Comment

2008-04-28T00:52:00.004+02:00

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Stores were closed =O

2008-04-27T22:57:00.003+02:00

I went to fitness today after waking up late XD
it was fun, I trained for about 2 hours with breaks off course^^
after that I wanted to go shopping because I need new earplugs=P
I've got three of those things, #1 I've got that thing since I've got my iPod it still works but the end of that thing is little bit broken :$ #2 I've bought that thing on the market for 3 euro's or something it was very cheap, so the sound is very low too, don't like that >.< #3 the strings of the earplugs are too long, I got these earplugs from the gym, so I won't trip over the strings. But in this case if the strings are too long I find it irritating, because I always listen to my iPod when I go to school with my bike, and I wanna control it without long strings in the way.
oh well enough about my earplug, I did wonder around how to spell it, I thought about earphones but that doesn't sound right >.<
I had an ice cream today because I was hot, not in a way you would think. The weather was nice and I was just home from the gym, so it's chill~
Oh and I've used the death note on my msn it was cool=P

THIS NOTE WILL NOTE TAKE EFFECT UNLESS THE WRITER HAS THE PERSON'S FACE IN THEIR MIND WHEN WRITING HIS/HER NAME. THEREFORE PEOPLE SHARING THE SAME NAME WILL NOT BE AFFECTED.

I'm going to Den Haag tomorrow I'll talk about that sometime. I'm going to sleep now, good night~

23th april

2008-04-23T20:06:00.003+02:00

School today~ was nothing special lah =P

I went to fitness and saw two pompon's! I don't know why but they made me feel like I'm worthless, just the sound of them =O I know it's weird but I think it's maybe from my past life or something =S oh well I exercised well though.

I'm now at home, I think my hay fever is coming up, don't know for sure if you say it like that in English, but it's an allergy that comes up around spring because the flowers tend to grow XD

that's it for today, I haven't done nothing special because I'm quite bored out lately. I've got all the time of the world~

well I've got exams so it's not all the time of the world but more then usual =)

19th april

2008-04-19T18:45:00.006+02:00

Friday: I went to Walibi World!!! It was so much fun, under way in the bus, we enjoyed karaoke music and took photo's of each other. When we were there I went to a lot of rides, it was sooo great! The bad thing was that my camera broke =( But mother said she would buy a new one for me XD great not? I also bought heart-shaped lollipops!
In the evening, it was prom time!!! I meet up with two friends of mine in the city and walked to 'de beurs' a cafe in the city where the prom was held. I worn the wrong shoes, the shoes were too big =O so I went to an ice-cream shop and ask a few tissues and put them in my heal, there wasn't a lot of difference except it was much more comfortable. When we came in we had to choose if we wanted to go to the non-smoking/non-music room or the smoking/music room, I didn't chose and just run around the two rooms XD like everybody. It was very cozy, I enjoyed the music, the environment and the people who were there. I took, like my friends say, 1000 picture's, figural speaking off course. You can check out the photo's at Hyves or my personal site Multiply. I left prom around the hour when they were suppose to stop the party...don't think they did XD Oh well I think everyone enjoyed the party except a few people who had to leave early because they had to catch the bus or they were still tired of Walibi World or some who had threw up because of Walibi World or alcohol XD

Saturday/ today: I was late for Chinese school today, well just 2 minutes or something XD it wasn't a big deal. We didn't a lot, we played a game where you had to make word pairs and stick the last word in another word pair. XD yea confusing oh well... I wanted to go buy a sandwich during the break, but the maindoor was closed so I didn't go and enjoyed my heart-shaped lollipop at school, I've made a comic about me eating it, check my personal site for it^^ after Chinese school I went shopping and bought a book for my brother about how to draw cars, he loves that. I also bought fried chicken at FEBO. I went home after that. I ate it and I'm writing this right now. I'll take a shower and go to sleep~ sooo tired XD

17th april

2008-04-17T23:29:00.006+02:00

wednesday: I found my prom dress!!! and bought nice bracelets~ I was so happy that day~

thursday in other words today =P I went to school today and stuff, during the break I went to the store and bought cacoa butter!!! I search for that everywhere!!! After school I went to a hairdresser called Kinki...yeah cute not?! I made the guy, yes a guy =P do my hair, he cut my hair in layers! I so love my hair now~
I went shopping after that, I bought a new pair of earrings to match my prom dress :) I also bought new bra to wear under my prom dress, because it's strapless XD I discovered something I'm a D now XD whahaha~ When I got home, I had spagetti for diner. I coloured my hair red today, yeah myself, I was in the mood XD I love it because I think it suite me =D that's all for today I'm going to sleep tomorrow is going to be a BIG day~ bye lah~

12th april

2008-04-12T23:13:00.003+02:00

The sun shines and it's time to wake up~
I went to Chineseschool today, it was like always only today during the break, I went to the bakery with a friend of mine. We had to run back to school because we thought we would be late because we had to wait very long until we got our sandwiches XD
During the run, I lost my wallet, well card holder, there was a few boys who yelled after me, who I thought was little perverted seem to be looking for me because they found my card holder =D They called the police and the police called me. I was extremely shocked when they called me, I thought they would say that they found my bike or that I'm being a criminal or something XD but instead they found my card holder! I didn't even noticed that I lost it until they called me! Still happy though =P
I hurried after Chinese school to the stores because my friend was waiting there for me. I said hi and told her the whole story while we went to the police station. When we arrived there we had to wait a while and then I got my card holder back! =P
I was so relieved and so happy that people are so decent to bring it to the police, a friend of mine said that if he found it he would try to decipher my credit card and steal my money! Good friend...right?! XD
I went looking for a prom dress today with that friend of mine, we laughed and talked about cool stuff and...
I've found a nice dress! It's black! I really love it because it's so simple, but it's so expensive! I really want to buy it! I reserved the dress for Monday, let's see if I can buy it, try to suck up to my dad, my mother really lows me now, because I spend her the money she put on my account! I'm like what do you expect me to do? Just let it be pretty like that in my account?! XD I also had to buy clothes for her that I saw in the stores, with my own money, so if you ask me, she doesn't have to be that mean!
I went to McDonald's today, I had a McFlurry, so nice! After that I brought my friend back to the central station and went back home by bike.
When I was home, I had nothing for diner, I wasn't in the mood~ But later on I was a little bit hungry, so my little brother made a sandwich for me, quite sweet although he ruined my apple adapter! He draw things on it with a pen that doesn't come off! I was so pissed when I saw it! I'm now ok with my brother.
I'm going to take a shower now and go to sleep...sooo tired! Have a nice day~

11th April

2008-04-11T23:18:00.005+02:00

4 days after my birthday, I didn't do anything special just went out to diner with my parents. Didn't blow any candles though...don't matter^^ I bought my own cake yesterday, a piece of chocolate and chipolata cake! I enjoyed both of them myself XD Well I think I also deserved it=P picture's of my cakes are coming! During my birthday I was sick...details...hmm let's just say I wasn't on my best.

The last few days I've looked for a promdress, because prom night is coming! I'm really looking forward to it! The problem is I want a nice dress!!! If I don't get to buy a nice dress that I adore, I'll do something special with my hair XD not something extreme, but just something classic and pretty^^ A date is also nice, but I think that won't happen, I'll just go with my friends and enjoy the night~

I went to KFC today with friends, it was delicous as always, really enjoyed being there, I know it's just KFC, it's not as if I never go to that place XD But I just love KFC!

I'm going to chineseschool tomorrow and after that I'll go shopping with a good friend of mine, shopping for a promdress!!! Really want a nice promdress^^ It's just something you want to remember, so you gotta dress nice for it =P

I just had a shower and I'm going to sleep now~ have a nice day~

My birthday^^

2008-04-07T17:06:00.003+02:00

Hello it's my birthday! I'm gonna party like it's my birthday! no just kidding I'm not going to party but it's really my birthday! My sweet sixteen XD very happy today on some level^^ I've got a lot of congrats from people, I really loved that on my birthday=P Here in The Netherlands, people kiss each other on the cheek 3 times XD to great each other or just for fun. In my case...IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!! Boehahahaha~ It's funny to be the birthday girl^.^ I don't need gifts or something just congrats from people that's all I want! Okay a gift is always welcome^^ hihi but I really appreciate it when people just know today is my birthday!!! =P I love my friends and family!!! Leave a comment for me =$

I got this picture from my uncle jordan^.^

Angel's sick

2008-04-04T23:37:00.005+02:00

Today is Angel's bad day lah >.< Angel is sick *cry~
I feel so obnoxious as if I'm cursed by someone....did you? no just kidding XD
It started with me eating a lot of peanuts, it made my throat ache~
I went to school today and had to cough a lot though but I felt quite normal though. And then I had gym class, My team got beaten! so stupid >.< After school I went to the store to buy some medicine to cure my throat ache, I've bought Trachitol. I used to rely on that product but now I'm not...it's because my throat hurts like hell now and the coughs have increased occurring.
When I got home, I got a running nose and caught a cold now I've got high fever! it's so weird if you put down all those things that happened today, it's as if somebody wanted this for me. I might be reacting very excessively. But if this happened to you just on a normal friday not friday 13th <<< that I think brings luck:P what should you do? I just had a shower, now I'm sitting on the couch about to fall in sleep, what's kinda weird, because I never sleep that early, I can't fall asleep that early...But now I'm why not get used to it? just to increase some age~
Might work...might not~ XD I hope it does, because it feel great to sleep early, because I feel kinda bad now very sick I mean.
I'm going to get some rest now...I hope I'll get better before my birthday comes up^^

31th march

2008-03-31T22:33:00.003+02:00

I've been to school today, was like every school nothing special~
After school, I went home and ate some brunch, just sandwich and cheese and multivitamin drink.

After brunch, I went to fitness. I walked on the treadmill about half an hour. I didn't do it too long because my ankle went sour. After that I walked on the stairs steppers, it's quites fun~ I did that about half an hour too. After that I trained my abs on the waist twisting machine, that was the best, I enjoyed that the most and after that I trained my bi/ triceps about 10 minutes with hand weights.
After fitness, I went to Media Market, it's a market where they sell electronic devices. I was planning to buy a cleaning kit, to clean my macbook, but because they were sold out, I went back home.
When I was home I watch a part of episode 3 of meteor garden. I didn't wanted to stop but my parents wanted to go out to eat. So we went out for diner, we were suppose to go to Texas grill house. We did about an hour over to search for it, we wonder around Tynaarlo, a quiet and abandon place in Groningen, okay it's now abandoned but everyone was inside eating while we were searching for the place. When we found the place, it was closed today!
Because we had to eat, we went to our trusted restaurant, restaurant Van Der Valk, just simply the best! I shared a two persons meal with my mother, a fish dish, it was delicious. After diner, we went home.
Now I'm home and I'm going to take a shower and watch some episodes of meteor garden.
good night~

30th march

2008-03-30T17:18:00.004+02:00

I've signed up for fitness two weeks ago...and I've only been there for a few times XD I really wanna go there, for fun and stuff. But first I got my pms, my inner thy hurt because I had a extreme workout the first time and then the third attempt was that I fell asleep on the couch while I just came home from school around 12 o'clock afternoon. I really should get more discipline and motivation. My motivation at this time is that I really wanna get a higher condition and if it's possible loose just a few kg but I really wanna have fun to. I think I'm going to go tomorrow. I'll write how it went tomorrow.

I'm going to watch some drama's now just to relax. Guess what I'll watch? X-family...I'm now at episode 27 and I'm planning to finish it at to episode 55! It' not that hard because I enjoy all the episodes^^

24th march

2008-03-24T23:05:00.003+01:00

I've woken up a bit early today. My parents, brother and I, we were suppose to go to Amsterdam, just to have fun there, buy things, drink tea etc... But under way to Amsterdam, because of the weather conditions, it snowed >.<, and the heater didn't work for a while, we had to turn back home.
But we went to Makro, we bought a lot of food and I bought a new box for my clothes^^ I'm happy with that =p After that we went home.
My mother made reservations at a new restaurant, so we went looking for it. But also because of the bad weather conditions and it was dark, we couldn't find the new restaurant. We canceled our reservation and went to another restaurant.
It's where we always go to. Hotel van der Valk, we always go to this restaurant to eat, because we know the people there and we know our way to that restaurant =) After diner, we went home.
When we arrived back home, I took a shower. After my shower, somebody called me and ask me a question about my education. I'm afraid my secret is out...

20th march

2008-03-20T22:28:00.005+01:00

It's thursday today and I went to school today...I...have pain in my hips....I...bought aleve today....it eases my pain...ok now u think I'm emo...well...

I want to go to fitness...but I can't...cause my hips hurt...I want to use the sauna of that fitness center....I wanna enjoy some peace & quiet...

good thing today is...it's the start of easter holiday...4 days...including weekend >.<

I'm going to hide & search for eggs with my brother...don't know which day yet...wonder what I'll do tomorrow...if my hips don't hurt anymore...I'll go to fitness...

I'm searching for a job so I can pay for my own things...every time I ask me parents for money...or they give it to me...I feel guilty...it started since I knew how hard it was for them to earn money...it doesn't appear in your wallet without doing something for it...I wanna work at a Chinese restaurant...as a waitress...my father is searching for me...because he knows most of the Chinese people in our area...

I'm going to shower and then I'll go to sleep...have a good night~

13th march

2008-03-13T21:22:00.004+01:00

I've been to school today, fooled around with friends and stuff~ XD
After school I went to sign up at a fitness centrum, with a friend of mine. When I was there the woman called Patricia showed us everything, how the equipments work and what they stand for. It's called Fitness First. A world largest health club operator with over 581 clubs over the whole world~ Even in Singapore! I'm now a member of their club. After the introduction, the woman gave me forms to fill in and stuff. And because I've recommended the club to more then 60 people, she gave me a bathrope :P so nice white and huge! :P I'm going to start tomorrow I think if I have the courage to start on my own. It's so scary to go to a place where I know nobody and there are so less people of my age.

After that my friend and I went to the Mcdonald's and I had a McChicken menu with potatoes deluxe with sour cream :p it was delicious :P After that we went to the apple shop and check out the new macbook air~ that thing lookes beautiful :) After that we went to the city and went shopping for a while...then we said: c u 2morrow~ and got home our selves. When I was home I helped out my mother in the cafetaria and then had little red rice, because I got hungry. I got upstairs with my brother and we've played cards and after that we've watched a little tv. Now I'm going to take a shower and sleep~ good night~

10th march

2008-03-10T17:05:00.004+01:00

I've been to school today and found out I was free...the whole school was free today~ I think it's because of a water problem in our part of the town. Since late last night there wasn't any water anymore. :O yeah big problem. They say there was a leak?! There's water again now :) I'm so happy that I'm free from school today, I've been shopping with my mother and bought candy and beauty products. I'm listening to music now. I'm having diner later with my parents & brother. After that...shower, learn for drawing theory test and sleep~ ^.^ bye~

My favorite perfume~
Davidoff cool water game 30 ml
A very fresh and nice perfume.
Recommend by Angel

8th march

2008-03-08T23:31:00.001+01:00

I slept at my grandmother's house today. I woke up and had breakfast & coffee. My grandmother and I went to the station with the Taxi. We had to wait a half an hour untill the bus came to pick us up to Beverwijk. We were going with a lot of asian woman, friends from the family.
Today was national woman's day The bus trip was sponsored by the Oriental Toko. When we were in the bus, there were a lot of people from Suriname origin. They were also big fans of the oriental toko. It was a very cozy trip.
When we arrived we got stamps on our hands, so when we walk out of the bazaar, we didn't have to pay another entry ticket. We got a food package too, it was soja milk with cha siew bao. Love cha siew bao~ When we were there, we've bought things at the oriental toko, for every 20 euro you spend there, you'll get one lottery ticket. We've bought over 60 euro's at the toko, so we got 3 lottery tickets :P After that we've looked around China Town and bought some food as brunch. After that we went back to watch the lottery.
And guess what! I've won!!! Guess what I've won! I won a diner for ten people!!! Guess where! At Den Haag!!! After that we all went back home with the bus. When we arrived in Groningen, my grandmother and I waited for the friend of my father to pick us up. We brought my grandmother home first, and then went home. When I came back home and told my parents that I won the lottery, they were so happy for me... after that they decided to take a few friends with them on that diner. Don't matter that much but I wanted actually to take my own friends...oh well:p Here's the adress from the oriental toko for if anyone want to go buy something oriental when they are in Groningen, netherlands. I'm going to take a shower now and then go to bed. I'm very tired, bye~

The oriental toko
Korreweg 51
9714 AB Groningen
Telefoon: 050-5776538
Fax: 050-5777593

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7th march

2008-03-07T17:23:00.003+01:00

I've been to school today :P was fun
I've just had a shower :)
I'm going to sleep over at my grandmother's house.
We'll go to Beverwijk together tomorrow. It's a China town with black market.
And tomorrow is Woman's day!~ girls rullez!!!
I'll talk about that tomorrow. Bye~

Breakfast

2008-03-06T23:12:00.003+01:00

I like breakfast, although I don't have that a lot. It's a good start of the day. But what do you have for breakfast usually? Most people prefer a sandwich with a cup of coffee or milk. Some people just eat their diner as breakfast and breakfast as diner. But what ways can you eat a breakfast? I wonder... Do you have tips? please comment^^

Here a some of my ways:
1. Nothing...I know that isn't good~
2. Soup with bread.
3. An apple.
4. Sushi.
5. Dim Sum with tea.
6. Noodlesoup.
7. Eggs on toast.
8. Chocolate milk/ coffee
9. Oat meal.
10. Porridge.
11. Bread, butter, sugar >>> JB Toast!!!
12. Bread, butter, salad, tomato, cucumber, cheese, ham >>> Sandwich Healthy!!!
13. Milk and cornflakes.

These are the 13 breakfast meals, I usually have. I know sometimes it doesn't look very healthy, but I can live with that. I usually take a fast bite and then I'll be out the door. Because I don't wake up early enough to have a big breakfast.

6th march

2008-03-06T22:55:00.004+01:00

It was rainy. I went to school today by bike, I was planning to go shopping afterwards but that didn't happen. I was suppose to clean the foodcourt at school with my classmate, but he left, so did I. My friend called me today, during the call, my cellphone went out of battery so we've called for about 2 hours~ I've had rice for diner, it was delicoius. I've seen Jurassic Park today, I've jumped for about six times because I saw a dinosaur. I've send a couple of reply mails to friends, I've cleaned out my mail. I showered in the evening and now I'm going to get myself a cup of hot chocolate milk, with a lot of choco and afterwards I'm going to bed. Tomorrow is going to be another new day. good night~

27th february

2008-02-28T01:48:00.006+01:00

9.57
I went to Amsterdam today with a friend. We've sat there for 1 hour and we had to change intersection and sit another hour. We've traveled about 2 hours from home till Amsterdam.
12.14
When we arrived at Amsterdam, two friends of mine picked us up. Daniel & Nicole. We went with the Metro & Tram. It was new for me, because usually I'm with my family and with the car. It was another experience.
After that Daniel took us ice skating! Yeah ice skating! We've met up with another friend of mine Pak-Ho, he took some friends with him, we were introduced but further more, we didn't talk a lot. Daniel, He told me before about that ice skating trip, but I thought he was joking and expected to go shopping. But after a few minutes, I've managed to ice skate on my own, but it still stays creepy. I didn't fell, that's a good point :P to be honest, it was creepy at first, because me right foot hurt a lot because the ice skate was set up too tight, but after a while...I kinda liked it :) It was fast and didn't took a lot of energy.
15.30
We went to take the Tram to the center of the city to go eat lunch. But we had to wait a while because the Tram driver didn't stop for us :O little weird...I know :P When we took another Tram to the center of the city, the others didn't get off the Tram, they didn't go to have lunch with us. I really wanted them to eat lunch with us, so we can get to know each other more, but they went to the movies together.
15.45 pm
We went to Hoi Tin to pick up some delicious Chinese cakes for my mother. After that we went to the Buddha temple, we've seen the exclusive side of the temple, because my friend had connections :p After that we went to have lunch finally, I was starving but I was the one wanting to go to the temple too.
16.30
We've got lunch & diner at Nam Tin, a restaurant who's specialized in Wan Tan soup. They made it so delicious. But I didn't finished it because it was so much! My friend treated us that whole meal~ that was so nice, he also paid my Tram & Metro tickets! I didn't wanted that but he insisted on it, how could I refuse? :P But after the meal, we went shopping, well...we went to one store and looked around and took some picture's under way, Nicole & I.
18.00
We also went to play pool, it was fun, but at first I had to get used to holding the stick. I've got two balls in the sack in one shot! I was kind proud of myself doing that. I know it was luck but still :P
19.00
We went under way to the OK bar of my friend's father & friends. It's a bar where you can drink off course and sing karaoke! I really looked forward to that! But I didn't sing a lot, because there wasn't a lot of songs I knew the lyrics of, and I can't read Chinese that well...yet :P I'm learning :p
21.30
My friends and I went to the central station and had to take the train back to Groningen. But my friend Nicole missed her train and had to take a train that left a half an hour later. I called her when she was under way home, she arrived safe at home an hour later, so it was ok.
21.57
My friend and I went home together and talked a bit under way. She fell a little bit asleep.
0.15
We arrived back in Groningen, and I tried to take my bicycle from the bicycle rack, because there wasn't a lot of space, so my bike was hanging above, but I couldn't get it out, luckily there was young students there who helped me get my bike, I said thanks and went home by bike. Under way home, it was dark, I saw shadows everywhere. it was kinda scary.
12.30
I arrived at home, and was very relived, because my friend was talking about lost children when we were in the train, that was very mean. But when I arrived at home, everybody of the cafe said: Hi~ and asked me about my trip to Amsterdam :p was kinda funny but after that I went upstairs and took a shower.
2.00
I'm typing this blog now and I'm going to sleep after this.
See you~~~
Picture's see (my personal blog, where you can watch and request pictures you think I've got)

25th february

2008-02-26T20:34:00.003+01:00

I've got up today and took a shower. After the shower I hurried to put some clothes on and did my hair. After that my parents brought me to my grandmother, my brother and my parents went to Den Haag, 3 hours driving away, to have some fun on there free day. I went to my grandmother and had breakfast there and saw my cousins. We've done our faces and talked a little bit and took the bus to the city. My cousins went back home and my grandmother and I went to a party @ Huize Maas, it's a late Chinese New Year party. It takes place every year during this time and usually there are a lot of Chinese people there who are a member of a Chinese association. It was ok, we've had diner there and listened to famous people playing the violin and dance for us. After that there was a lottery, I've picked the numbers, 13, 21, 22, 23, 24, 25, 26. Every lot costs about 5 euro. My grandmother won two things, a glaze sculpture and a box of sweet cookies? I don't know for sure but I've heard of father that she won those things. Because during the lottery I went off to an Asian Party around the corner at &-zo. When I went off I've made sure that my uncle was there. When I was at the Asian Party, it was a lot of fun, I've seen people I haven't seen in a long time and people I just know who I've seen to much. I've danced, drank, talked and made some new friends! We went on till 5 am in the morning!!! It was so much fun!!! I've said goodbye to my friend and my father picked me up from the party. That was it for today see you~~~

It's SpRinG BrEaK!!!

2008-02-22T17:54:00.010+01:00

I've been to school today, had math class, that took two hours and then gym class! Usually I don't like gym class. But this time I enjoyed gym class. It was fun! We've played a game called 'palen spel' you have to devide in two teams and try to hit the pole with a ball of the other team, which stands in the middle of the field. After that game we played a game called tampon spel, you have to devide in two teams again and try to hit the ball in the other teams goal, you will use a tampon stick. It's a stick that looks a lot like a tampon. xD After that we played a game called 'mat zwaaien' The teacher hang up a big mat on the ropes and four people take turn to lay on it and swing! I loved that! I got the opportunity to do that twice^^

After school I went home and ate Russian salad, It tasted great! I love to try food from different cultures, it's always a new taste.

I'm going to a Chinese New Year party on Monday with my grandmother, in the Huize Maas. I've heard that everyone with a asian background will be there to celebrate CNY. You're never to late to celebrate a New Year!

After that party I'm going to an Asian party in the &-zo. There will be a lot of asian people there, especially people around the age of 16-22 years old. There will be free sushi and dim sum. entrance will cost 6 euro, I'm looking forward to that party :P

And I've found a friend who wants to go to Amsterdam with me. I was planning to go there with another friend but she canceled, so I had to find another friend who wanted to go with me, or else I won't have permission from my parents to go. Now that I have a friend who wants to go with me, I really looking forward to that trip, I'm going there to go shopping and to visit some friends. We're going to take the train to Amsterdam, that'll take us about 2 hours. And then we'll go shopping and then we'll have diner together. And after that we're going to sing karaoke together at my friend's karaoke bar! Well I'm not sure about that last one...yet...because I don't know if I have to book places or something.

I really hope we'll have a great day, I know it's too early to plan it, but I don't like to think what I have to do on the last minute. I want to make a lot of photo's, so I can keep a memory. I hope my friends in Amsterdam will have fun too.

SpRinG BrEaK ScHedUle:
23-2 Chinesschool and Shopping
25-2 Chinese New Years Party @ Huize Maas
Asian Party @ &-zo
27-2 Trip to Amsterdam! (shopping, visit friends & Karaoke)

more events will come with the flow~ :p you'll hear about that from me :D

20th february

2008-02-20T17:24:00.000+01:00

I went to school today and after that me & my schoolmates went to a park and took some funny pictures together for memory that we are together during the secondary school.
We went to the supermarket too and bought a lot of food and sat on a bench at the park and ate them on the end of the day my tummy hurt a lot of all those sweets.
I've uploaded the picture's I've made on my personal site, you can enjoy them if you want~
I've talked to some friends today and maybe I'll go to another city in the short spring break of a week just to meet some friends and have fun and go shopping and have diner together!
I can't wait it's next week already I hope my mother will let me go and I'll find a friend who want to go with me to the big city

Valentines day

2008-02-14T01:00:00.000+01:00

CAUTION!!! This blog special might have side effects on some people, so read it caution. Miss. Angel can't be responsible for the side effect, compliments are welcome ;)

Now people can't celebrate valentinesday without money! Well they're still confessing there love...valentines day is a great day to do that! But they started buying expensive flowers, chocolates, heartshaped things and going out with your boy-/ girlfriend! It all cost a lot of money! Valentines day is very cozy, especially because it's all about the money!

Do you have to get some gift for your boy-/ girlfriend on a special day just to show how much you care?

No, ok I understand you wanna give something nice :p read on...
On what moment can you celebrate valentinesday without it costing you a fortune?
When you're married, old or just let you sweetheart know how much you love her/ him by showing your love...how?!
Ok...a little gift doesn't hurt anybody, but don't let valentinesday be the only day where you show your sweetheart how much you care about her/ him.

What if you don't have a sweetheart?
well...go find one! Confess to him/ her on this instant!
doesn't work? tell me about it :P

I'm going to sit at home and watch some television, maybe I'll go shopping :p I'll see^^

Happy Valentinesday Sweethearts^^ love Angel

13th february

2008-02-13T22:34:00.006+01:00

It's the day before valentinesday....

List of what I've done today....
don't expect to much I'm kinda boring lately >.<

I've been to school today.
I've chilled with some friends.
I've had a Dutch test.
I've eaten lunch, that was something...I forgot already :P
I went to the supermarket to buy cookies & drinks for my little brother.
I went home.
I've watch some television.
I've read some magazines.
I've called my nephew to cancel, seemed that he wasn't planning to go either because he's not in the mood.
I was planning to go breakdance with my nephew, but because it's sooo dark I chose to stay home, I'm kinda scared at night when I have to go to the city on my own by bike.
I've called my nephew to cancel, seemed that he wasn't planning to go either because he's not in the mood.
I've had diner, that was nice food...I think...I also forgot what that was again.
I've read a few blogs on the internet.
I've send some emails.
I've printed a nice car picture for my brother.
I've talked to a few people on msn/ pp2g/ hyves.
I've watch a dvd.
I'm writing my blog.
I'm going to take a shower.
I'm going to sleep^^

8th february

2008-02-08T20:28:00.000+01:00

I had a math test today at school, that took about 2 hours. After that I went home and ate some cereals, after that I brushed my teeth, preparing for dentist apointment.
I went to the dentist on my bike, on the way to the dentist, I had to look for the dentist XD I forgot about where it was.
When I arrived there, I had to wait a few minutes, and then it was my turn! I said hello to the dentist and went inside. He gave me the usual treatment; checking my teeth, blowing some air around it. < that's it! But he also gave me some tips this time.
He said: you drink a lot of coke don't you?
I'm like: yeah can you see that?
he's like (almost psychic!): I can see you eat a lot of candy too.
I'm like: hehe^^
He told me to drink more milk or water and stay away from candy and coke XD I'm going to try to do that^^
After the dentist, I went to the city and bought new cute shoes^^ I just love my new shoes :P they are beautifull! oh well...I bought a lot of new underwear with lace XD hehe just love lace it's sooo pretty and cute! don't you agree? ^^
when I went home I had diner and after that I played some computer, talked to some friends and now I'm writing my blog and later I'm going to take a shower and then I'll go to sleep^^ nighty night!

Happy Chinese New Year

2008-02-07T17:58:00.000+01:00

It's Chinese New Year! My grandmother brought us a lot of food, to put at the Buddha's altar for Chinese New Year. (For people who don't know why we do that: It's 50% respect to the Buddha and 50% tradition.) We lighted candles, bought fresh flowers, yellow chrysanthemum and we put food on the altar. After that we lighted some ' wierook'. I don't know how you translate that in English, I think it's incense?
hehe...oh well today I got to school and was suppose to sit 3 hours at school for art class. But the teachers told our class, that we're free today because the teacher is ill.
I went home and had myself a big breakfast, in other words: just cereals with milk, After my breakfast I send a few friends who I got there cellphone # some text messages with: Happy Chinese New Year!^^
after that I went upstairs, updated my profiles at different websites. And now I going to take a shower and then I'm going downstairs for New Years meal! hihi it's roasted..I think...duck with rice and vegetables :) bye~ Have a

Happy Chinese New Year

~~~

4th february

2008-02-04T22:32:00.000+01:00

I went to school today and had a society test, it was quite hard but there wasn't even that many questions. After school I went back home and tried to finish my math essay, I know it sounds kinda weird a math essay, but we have to write about 2 math subjects. After that my father and I went to the swimmingpool to watch my brother take his swimminglessons. After his lessons, we went to the great trade...I don't know for sure if it written great trade, it's a big store, where people get there stuff to sell to other people. We went there to watch a lot of stuff and bought a lot of food. After that we went to a restaurant to eat diner. My parents, brother and I went to a restaurant called Van der Valk. It's one of my favorite restaurants, I've ordered as headstarter a spinach with cream cheese soup and as head meal, salmon with blanc cream sauce, as dessert I had a apple, cinnamon, hazelnut icecream. It was delicous, I enjoyed the whole meal. after the diner we went home and tried our new bought massage chair click-on thing. It's a shiatsu seat, premium edition. You have to attach the massage thing to a chair. The massage thing lets you enjoy the wellness of shiatsu. I'm taking a shower now and go to bed! byebye! ^^

2nd february

2008-02-03T01:44:00.001+01:00

Today I woke up and got ready to go to Chinese school. I wanted to go outside untill I saw the weather, there was snow! Because of that I put on my white fluffy head and white gloves ^^ I went to school by bike, I was early! Everyone was waiting outside, and then the headmaster came and everybody got to there classroom. After everyone collected in the classroom, we went to the busses. We went to Assen by bus. Assen is a village most people call a city, because of the many facilities there. We went to a exposition in Assen, people from China came especially to perform there art. It was a expostition about the army of xi'an & the olympic champions in Beijing this year 2008. I enjoyed the whole exposition! After the whole thing we went back to Groningen.
I helped a friend picking up two cakes together and droped them off at the nearest refridgerator. After that I went back home and prepared for my cousin´s birthday party.
She and her friend rented a disco for a few hours. There wasn´t a lot of people, not the number they aspected. But at the party, there was drinks, lollypops, candy, fried asian delicates. The party was fun, I enjoyed dancing, drinking & laughing! After that we were suppose to go out together, but because of the several difference in opinions and age different, that couldn´t happen. So my cousin of the age 13 and I (15), we went home, the rest of the people went out and had fun, I guess.
But no worries! After that I went home myself by bike, around eleven o´clock. When I was home, I showered, watched some televion, went online for a sec, checked my mail & now I´m going to bed^^ picture's are coming! more picture's? check out my personal site ;) I've made videos too, you can watch them at my personal site too. enjoy!

Tattoos & piercings

2008-01-30T18:57:00.000+01:00

What are tattoos & piercings?
well...look up at www.google.com
Why do people want a tattoo?
Some people want to look original, they want to look different from people. In my case, it's not that I've got a tattoo, but still...having a tattoo is like having my own thoughts or name on my body. Having a tattoo has it's good and bad points. Good points are: you'll have a cool tattoo...you can show that to your parents and just make them mad! or just get a tattoo with your parents name or a sign of love for your partners :PI can't think of other good points anymore. Bad points are: you're scarred for life, maybe it can affect your job, some people just don't want to hire a person with a tattoo, you can regret it later when you grow old and get rimples.
Why do people want a piercing?
In my case...I just love to wear a lot of bling, you know...ear rings^^ other people just want there ear pierced, and other just get there ear pierced as a sign of love or friendship :P I'm going to get my ear pierced again...I think, with permission of my mother. I've got 5 earrings, 3 on one side and 2 on the other side.
Where can you get a tattoo or a piercing?
Well..in a tattoo or piercing shop.
Why am I writing this blog?
Well...a good friend of mine is planning to get a tattoo, I just wanted to show her, the good and bad points. Because a tattoo won't go away that easily, she has to think about it before she spontaneously get a tattoo a regret it. And I wrote something about piercings because I want to get another one to add to my collection of piercings on my ear. ^^ comment please?! :P photo of my ear is coming soon :D

29th january

2008-01-29T22:35:00.000+01:00

I went to school today and follow some classes...after that a friend & I went to the stores and bought some nail stickers...we went to the supermarket and bought coffee:p after she went home, I went back to my home, ate diner...and ehm...went online talked to some friends and now I'm going to take shower and go to bed...
This is one of my days. You too think I've got a boring life don't you? I can understand that, because I found my own life very boring too.
I didn't did no nothing special today, I had a French watch test, we had to watch a dvd, where people spoke french and we had to fill the correct answer on our answerpaper. As for diner I had rice with fish & vegetables. It tasted great like always...
Sometimes things don't always have to go this way...I mean every day I go through the same things, sometimes I get the chance to do something new, but usually I'm at home, doing my homework, or going shopping with a friend. If somebody needs me, I'm always available at home, I'm so predictable! I wanna be unpredictable!

Sometimes things you enjoy of in the past can't get your mind anymore.

Like people say in Malaysia, taiwan, china: "wo xian zai hen wu liao!"
it means I've got nothing to do now, I'm boring now, I'm useless now!

28th january

2008-01-28T23:09:00.001+01:00

I went to school today, it was fun, I finished my painting...picture is coming soon! And after that I went to the supermarket with friends and bought japanese cookies!^^ After that I went home..my mother was planning to go to the city with the bike. So I went with her! We went shopping in the city and bought a lot of clothes and stuff. After that we went home. My father & brother were in the car waiting for my mother, they were going to watch cars, they want to buy a second hand car, because our car bumper is going to fall of anytime! :S oh well...after they watched some cars, they came back home. They watched some cars on the internet and left my bother at home with me. My brother wanted to watch pokémon, so I clicked on Youtube and typed pokémon. He watched that for an hour and then my parents came home with KFC! We ate KFC and then I created a new spot @ Hyves.nl check it out: http://ah-hocafe.hyves.nl/ It's about my parents cafe & cafetaria! after that I spoke to a few friends on msn and went for a shower and went to bed....sleep tight!!! I've got a nice quote for today

People don't always say what they really wanna say.

26th january

2008-01-26T20:32:00.000+01:00

I Woke up today and had 'ontbijt fruit' fruit drink from hero. It's delicious! and I've got my p...after that I went to Chinese school, as always on a Saturday from 12 am till 3 pm. At school, we had a test today, I thought it would be very very difficult but it was just very difficult :) I had 80 points! of the 100!
I'm very happy with this grade because I didn't think I would get a good grade. Everybody had to tell a story as a final grade, a friend ans I were practicing in the hall...it was hilarious XD we acted like the characters we were telling in the story and we were doing some tai-chi, well kind of, I came up with the watermelon to the left/right XD after school I saw my cousin, she was holding her baby and was planning to pick up her son. But she lost him for a while and after we asked the principal of the school, she brought us my cousin's kid, luckily we found him, because my cousin doesn't live very near the school, 2 till 3 hours driving! XD oh well...I went shopping with my other cousin, he has changed a lot! His voice changed! his length! and his hair! he changed into a man, well man is a big word he's 13-_-' But we went shopping, and bought a few things and I brought him home. After that I went home and went online, ate diner, and now I'm going to shower XD after that I'm going to... go online again or watch some action movies^^ or comedy and then I'll be sleeping!

My stuff!!!

2008-01-26T16:00:00.000+01:00

Uncle Jordan!!!!!!! I need my stuff *my 20 kg stuff!!! I need them, please send them back to me in Holland!!!! I want my cd's and clothes!!! please?! I didn't bought them to stay pretty at your place please send me my stuff. tips: send them in a box seperated in 10 kg that's easier for you

18th january

2008-01-18T16:59:00.000+01:00

You might noticed that I haven't been posting a blog a while ago. Today my brother brought a friend with him, they made a mess of the whole livingroom. Guess who had to clean that up? -_-'me! sure, no problem....the problem is that I'm always the one who has to clean up the mess my little brother made :@ oh well... my mother bought a fitness thing , she tried to work on it a while...and then she gave it to me and said: Here I want you to have it. It's that she didn't had the decipline to work on it. I don't mind she gave me that thing, it's quite handy. I started on my math essay today...I didn't got far, I'm still busy with that thing. The grade I get for that essay has to be a good grade because the teachers have to decide with that essay if I'm able to past for math this schoolyear. I have to go eat diner now...bye! And by the way: when you're lonely or just want someone to talk to>>>I'm always here^^ the music in my page is very good too;)

My father's birthday

2008-01-14T22:36:00.000+01:00

On my father's birthday, my father has a fever. We ate pizza & spagetti and just drank Ice tea. I'm watching drama's again and my father went out to his godfather while he has a fever. Oh well....that's it, good nights!

boring day

2008-01-13T21:50:00.000+01:00

I watch smiling pasta....again, Oh well, I ate a lot today, a lot of cookies and had two diners xD hmmm...and I fold some clothes and I did the dishes. Well...I don´t think I´ve got a lot to say today, from today on I made a pact to myself, I´ll never write in my blog again without having an interesting thing to say, like an event or a feeling...as if I don't have a life >.< Ok, just showered and did some homework. I´m going to watch my drama again and go to sleep^^ By the way, from now on I'm going to

Carpe diem! seas the day!

just because if I try to describe it everyday on blogger, my life seems so useless, I just don't feel like I've been usefull all day, it's not that I've got nothing to do, but I just refussed to do something sometimes. Now I'm just going to post something if I've seast something :) bye!

Pick a heart

2008-01-12T23:38:00.001+01:00

When I was little, I lived above a restaurant. I lived there with my parents & my whole family, my cousins & aunts & uncles. I enjoyed living there, I loved it there, I'm mad at my father because he sold that home. I'm very sad when I come past that restaurant, it's that I can't forget the good times there. It'll always be my home, in my heart. At that time the whole family was so close! Now it's only one day in year at grandmother's birthday. I wish everybody could get together more often, that everybody contacted each other. When I was little and my 7th uncle was playing guitar at that time. I found a pick, (it's a heartshaped thing that you use to play the guitar) I always thought it was a real heart that somebody left at the livingroom table, I collected them. Almost every time my uncle wanted to play guitar, he asked everybody where his picks are, everybody said I don't know, even me. Somebody explained to me that he's searching something that is used to play a guitar, at that time, I didn't knew that a 'heartshaped thing' is use to play a guitar. Now I understand I was the one who kept the picks. Now I've lost all those collected picks, but I still remember myself collecting those 'hearts'.

12th january 2008

2008-01-12T22:41:00.000+01:00

I didn't went to chineseschool today... My brother & I cleaned the whole house, in our pyjama's XD at home... And the sun was shining today! I haven't seen the sun here since the beginning of the year 2008 o_O oh well.. I'm watching drama serie again... haven't finished watching the 17 episodes of smiling pasta....yet :P I will finish it!!! :D I've watched a funny show at phoenix CNE TV, it was about normal people, who get famous just because they sang a great song that matched there voices, so touched by there voices^^ but I have to go now, still have to shower. bye!

8th january

2008-01-08T21:46:00.000+01:00

I went to school today. After school I went home. My brother seemed to have used a new pack of instant coffee to play as sand in the living room! My mother flipped when she saw it! I did too actually. I helped cleaning the whole house, because the whole house was covering with instant coffee, because if you step on it they will stick to your feet's and belong somewhere else xD After that a friend of my father came installing a new package including internet, television and call. The weird thing was, it's a 2 month free testing, if the 2 months are over, you can choose to continue or stop with your package. The cool thing was you could add some channels to it...I mean like TVB!!! It's a Chinese channel, we could add that to our package! That's so chill, but add channel is add money :S I uploaded a lot of photo's to my website too today, so you can enjoy that today~ I'm going for a shower and then watch a little tv and then I'll go to sleep :P

My grandmothers birthday

2008-01-08T00:27:00.000+01:00

First day at school after x-mas holiday, it was great to see my friends again! School was like usually very boring but I learned a lot of things...in this year :P After school, I went home and changed my outfit and painted my nails red with golden glitters! It's my grandmother's birthday today, she held it at Ni Hao Pavilion. Almost everyone of the family who lives in Holland was there. We went inside and were welcomed by a doorman, well I think it was the son of the owner of the restaurant?! He didn't look so bad :P But after we hanged our jackets, we went to the area where the party was hold. We great each other by saying: 'Happy New year! and Long time no see!' whahaha! It was great to see those other family members again, especially my cousins, I wanted to make a picture of us all reunited again, but they refused, I'm already happy they let me took a few pictures of them :P I just don't see them that often, I just see them every year at grandmother's birthday... that's it. It's quite ashamed, I think I can get along with my mother side of the family better, they just know me better, my father side of the family is also good but it's just not the same. I made a lot of pictures, you can watch them on my personal site: You're welcome to comment on those pictures, I know they all aren't of good quality, but nobody sat still, everyone was enjoying the party! :) I had fun today, but I'm very tired now, so I'm going to sleep now ^^ goodbye~